Felt so stupid today ):

My first negative post in years! Today was an extremely bad day for me. I can't believe i didnt read the instructions propoerly before i went for my US visa interview!!
I was supposed to head to speedwing first in the morning to collect my documents before heading to the US embassy for my interview. I didnt read the part..collect docs at speedwing first. So, my interview was at 9.30am. I reached the US embassy at 8.30am. one hr early. nice. then, first stop, security..he asked me for my appointment letter( i was like what?! of course i didnt have it becos i didnt go to speedwing), and he told me to go home and print. But somehow he managed to call the front desk person to check if i had an appointment, and i did of course. so he let me in.
Next stop: Front desk lady. She asked to see my docs(which i didnt have with me), I said it was with speedwing, then she told me to go in to get queue no. AT THIS POINT OF TIME, IF SHE HAD TOLD ME THAT I NEEDED THOSE DOCS, IWLD HAVE GONE QUICKLY TO SPEEDWING AND TAKE THE DOCS! BUT SHE LET ME IN. nice.
Waited for 20mins for my turn to see the officer to hand in my "docs". Was rejected since i didnt have anything. 9.15am..no docs, how to go for interview at 9.30?
So what i did was i called speedwing and they told me to go down to take my docs and try my "luck" to see if the us embassy wld allow me to go for the interview. I cabbed down and cabbed back. And was rejected. And the front desk lady for super unreasonable and fierce! i was kinda scared if not i wld have persuaded her to let me in since i was only 15 mins late(according to speedwing, there is a grace period)

I seriously felt so stupid today. Like why didnt i think abt the situation whereby if i have no docs with me, how can i even register. I shld have known to go down to speedwing first. WHY AM I SO BLUR. Or why wasnt i thinking? I felt so devasted! I've never missed or turn up late for an interview before. speedwing has to rebook another interview slot and this may cost me $50. Praying that they will waive the fee.

I feel so down now. I was looking forward to a busy and exciting weekend. Now this has kinda dampened my mood. Off to Yf retreat soon! Ltb execution tml. Jp outing then heading to sch for filming of CT proj.

I was asking God why? as i waited for the bus. I felt that it was sth i cldnt bear at the moment in time. I cried. I trusted that He wld make a way when i was in the cab. Now, i'm not sure if i may get another interview slot but I'm trusting that God has His better plans for me.

I'm didnt expect myself to blog before exams. But i felt i needed to pour everything out. No smiley faces for this post. A lesson which i learnt it the hard way...

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.